At the end of the day, people will judge you either way, so do what makes you happy!

🌈 1195 – Wednesday, 5th June 2024 23:51

London

I don’t know what you’re looking for You haven’t found it baby, that’s for sure You rip me up, and you spread me all around In the dust of the dead of time

And this is not a case of lust, you see It’s not a matter of you versus me It’s fine the way you want me on your own But in the end, it’s always me alone

And I’m losing my favourite game You’re losing your mind again I’m losing my baby Losing my favourite game

I only know what I’ve been working for Another you so I could love you more I really thought that I could take you there But my experiment is not getting us anywhere

I had a vision I could turn you right A stupid mission and a legal fight

I should have seen it when my hope was new My heart is black and my body is blue And I’m losing my favourite game You’re losing your mind again I’m losing my favourite game You’re losing your mind again

I’m losing my baby Losing my favourite game

I’m losing my favourite game You’re losing your mind again I’ve tried But you’re still the same I’m losing my baby You’re losing a saviour and a saint.. by the Cardigans is playing on the Virgin radio…

My head hurts but I still don’t feel like going to bed. Staying up feels good, A mate insists that getting 8 hours of sleep per day is essential, but I find it hard to agree, since reading Joseph Campbell’s books, you will let go of the date, time and the I factor.. The one who says, I, mine, me.. for me.. it’s me! everything is mine.. I own this, I want to have it.. I bought it.. it’s mine.. mine.. the mine the greedy mine disappears.

The time which was meant to measure the task one’s trying to finish or to measure the distance travelled, it controls each one of us now. There is no need to measure the time you slept and then stress out that you only slept for 5 hours .. There was no time in the cave we evolved from..

Then there comes a system of labelling the dates. The Sun came and left, the Sun came and left.. and the Sun came and left.. they named it Sunday! then the Sun came and left.. they named it Tuesday.. The Sun came and left.. they named it Wednesday.. Thursday, Friday, Saturday.. so on.. why there was no Poopday after Sunday then? you silly human!

Now say Meh..! Meh..! Meh…..!! you freakin Goat!

I woke up to the Sunlight in the morning, a mate had crashed over last night, we had a catch-up and watched half of Pretty Women on Netflix and had an early night. Wednesday day of the work week.

“Wednesday, the day that bridges the midweek chasm, turning it into a stepping stone for triumph. Today unfurls not as an obstacle, but as a runway for your dreams to take flight!” …. a poem for you on Wednesday!

06:45 A colleague and a friend had already messaged on Teams.. Good morning team, I’m at work already and ready for another busy day! I was like, come on you! And I did the affirmations in bed, checked the family group chat and got off the bed.. mate’s left who crashed over last night.

Wanted to go to the gym before work but had been dreading all week about this meeting at 11:30 so instead decided to have a quick breakfast and logged in to work straight by 08:10 AM..

Did Audits work, most of the morning.. around 10:46 sharp on family group chat, Dad congratulated my brother on something, I wondered what it was and opened this pic bro had sent and he’s received a Certificate of Appreciation from his MD.. there’s nothing more joy that can bring to see my brother happy! I texted back congratulations and then a private message to Bro congratulating him, and well deserved.. he’d been working so hard for many many years. Finally a little token of appreciation. I asked if it was sent by email or given to you by hand and he said there were about 45 people in the meeting room when it was given.. I almost had tears for him and he went quiet too for a bit, I’m pretty sure he was wearing.. and I said “Ananda Bhashapalu” “tears of joy” in English.

I told him I got a meeting shortly and we bid farewell.. rushed to finish some work and update an excel tracker to give numbers and complete the meeting which lasted until 12:00 had went well.. and glad it went well. I felt relieved after that and found myself the next 25 minutes browsing this and that on Instagram!

Sat at the desk until 13:10 when I got off for lunch, and ate earlier.. working from home means, eating 24 hours a day! so I wasn’t hungry at lunchtime so instead the backpack left for the gym.. bright, sunny, blue and warm outside, the world seemed to be out.. The Picadilly circus was packed with people, The pure gym Pidadilly is 5 minutes away from my door, glad I don’t have to walk far.. it was already 13:30 by then.. Had a really, really, really, really, really, really good workout! short but a good one.. did 4 sets of 8 reps of Dumbbell presses, Lateral raises, front raises, and bicep curls and off out in 30 minutes.. walked back home, found myself logging back work at 14:06.. sat for a bit, then had lunch Lentils, Gosh and Chawal… Sat back at the desk, did some research on creating a Health and safety assessment form for work, then a mate and I got on the video call to check the tickets for choir at the Southbank club, and sat at the desk rest of the afternoon until 17:30.

There was a leak at the kitchen under the sink so the plumber was expected between 6 and 7 pm, I wanted to stay in and so took a nap after work for 20 min, then it went on for another 20 min listening to this YouTube guided mediation, then another 20 minutes.. woke up finally at 20:10..

slept well and feel fully relaxed, I had forgotten to wear a mouth guard last night, as my mate was around and woke up to a headache by grinding the teeth, apparently, it is called Bruxism, involuntary habitual grinding of the teeth, typically during sleep.

Oral health specialists often point to too much stress and certain personality types as causes of bruxism. Bruxism often affects people with nervous tension, such as anger, pain, or frustration. It also affects people with aggressive, hurried, or overly competitive tendencies.

Made Masala Oats for dinner and ate watching Triangle of Sadness for about 20 mins on Netflix, then sat at the desk checking emails today the Direct Ferries affiliate program had approved me, going through their presentation and the doorbell rang.. and it was the plumber at 10 pm..

Around the world today –

• The day after India’s official election results showed Narendra Modi’s party lost its majority in parliament, the prime minister is gearing up for coalition talks to form a new government. His Bharatiya Janata Party needs to secure the support of two regional, although notoriously unreliable, allies to stay in office for a third term.

• Israel and Hamas war They won’t accept US President Joe Biden’s latest effort to end their war in Gaza until their separate conditions are met.

• Georgia’s ruling party put forward draft legislation targeting LGBTQ rights, adding to a crackdown on civil society that has drawn strong condemnation from the US and the European Union.

3 things I felt grateful for today

• Felt so grateful that my brother received that certificate of appreciation, so much love for you my bro, you deserve much much more than that piece of paper.. I wish you every success and happiness on the planet.

• Felt grateful on my way to the gym this afternoon, for how close the gym is to mine.

• Felt grateful when that leak was repaired this evening, some sort of writing is done today and I could go to bed peacefully.

What would it take for me and for you to wake up 10 x times, healthy, bigger, thicker, leaner, stronger, more energetic, confident, rich, happy, make it workout in the morning, login work sharp on time, everything to be fine with family, friends and everyone around, and then have a relaxing, relaxing, relaxing yet a productive day tomorrow and all negative patterns, please get removed!

Goodnight, good luck!

Ash Khaleem