You are the author of your life, nobody else!

🌈 1244 – Thursday, 7 November 2024 23:43

London

“I tnaw ot evil ni a ecalp, erehw I t’nod evah ot yrrow ro kniht tuoba eht esion no eht rood. kahD kahD etlob aht er tahter raezawrad ,ehleeps nu animak ahT ,ssu ek daab ow letsor me ek ssab doow, nnI animak ssi raab.

ahalallA, rah ke htaluohas ka iarg eh ye ,ymmu appam enahan yek eily sahtaluohas ib eh ,liD es aurdk eldir oD, huc na huc aatsr lakin , ur ek rha em oekoor emeuoy remith oodet or…”

I woke up early, and the first thing on my mind was the flat I saw last night. I’d told him I’d let him know this morning. When I looked at my phone to turn off the alarm, the first word I saw was “stopped!” I took that as a sign, so I didn’t message him about taking the flat. Honestly, I’m unsure if that place is right for me; maybe it was an opportunity I should have taken, or maybe there’s something better out there that aligns more with my expectations. Either way, I couldn’t really picture myself leaving the house, getting ready, and heading to work with my headphones on, listening to Bloomberg News.

And if my brother visits, could I imagine him stepping out of that house with me? Probably not. I want my dear, respectable Bhaia to visit me in the best place possible, wherever that might be.

Anyway, that was my mindset this morning.

I headed to the gym, hoping to avoid the building caretaker, and luckily, she wasn’t there. A few days ago, I was running late but managed to squeeze in a quick morning workout. As I entered the elevator, there she was, scrubbing the floor. I was just in gray track pants and a hoodie, barely awake, but she looked right up at the bulge and didn’t look away, making things uncomfortable. It’s surprising how boundaries seem to blur these days. God, a little help here!

For some reason, tonight feels like writing with an open heart. What’s brought on this sudden shift? Whether there’s a tomorrow or not, let’s make the most of today. But what does “living fully” even mean? Perhaps it’s about feeling good. Yet, how can anyone feel good when weighed down by thoughts of trying to bring everything needed to feel comfortable or happy in life? How can we make it possible to enjoy the present when thoughts are crowded with goals and things that we think that need to get done, constantly swirling with plans and worries? Think, think, worry, worry, figure out, figure out, overcome, overcome!

Humans, please start helping one another, and share love and wealth.

Had a quick but a good workout this morning, did 4 x sets of 11 reps of pull-ups on the bar, then on the bench 24 kg, Dumbbell shoulder presses, then lateral raises.. feeling gooddd at that time.

Alanis Morissette “Hand In My Pocket” is playing on the Virgin active right now and it feels like fitting.. .

“I’m broke, but I’m happy I’m poor, but I’m kind I’m short, but I’m healthy, yeah I’m high, but I’m grounded I’m sane, but I’m overwhelmed I’m lost, but I’m hopeful, baby And what it all comes down to Is that everything’s gonna be fine, fine, fine ‘Cause I’ve got one hand in my pocket And the other one is giving a high five I feel drunk, but I’m sober I’m young and I’m underpaid I’m tired, but I’m working, yeah I care, but I’m restless I’m here, but I’m really gone I’m wrong and I’m sorry, baby And what it all comes down to Is that everything’s gonna be quite alright ‘Cause I’ve got one hand in my pocket And the other one is flicking a cigarette And what it all comes down to Is that I haven’t got it all figured out just yet ‘Cause I’ve got one hand in my pocket And the other one is giving a peace sign I’m free, but I’m focused I’m green, but I’m wise I’m hard, but I’m friendly, baby I’m sad, but I’m laughing I’m brave, but I’m chicken shit I’m sick, but I’m pretty, baby And what it all boils down to Is that no one’s really got it figured out just yet Well, I’ve got one hand in my pocket And the other one is playing a piano And what it all comes down to my friends, yeah Is that everything is just fine, fine, fine ‘Cause I’ve got one hand in my pocket And the other one is hailing a taxi cab”

Arrived at work right on time around 9, wearing a blue check shirt with formal blue trousers and matching brown shoes. The workday was smooth—spent time on some tasks, then grabbed coffee with a friend around 11 for a nice, long chat. Spent the rest of the day at the desk, and wrapped up around 5:15. Had a viewing scheduled at St. George’s Wharf in Vauxhall; it’s a nice place, but once again… people, people!

Rode back home, ate some nibbles, and then booked the swim for 19:00 at the Marshall Street leisure centre and off I went.. the roads in Soho were so crowded today… Swam for about 30 minutes.. until I felt like I had enough and to get out, the shower was refreshing, and it was cold water, I wish to get used to using cold water soon.. got back home, made a quick dinner some pasties and eggs, texted brother what he was up to and we started catching up while eating with the headphones on.

Around the world today-

3 things I felt grateful for today –

• Australia is implementing a ban on children under 16 from using social media as part of an effort to safeguard young people’s mental health.

• Temperatures in 2024 are expected to exceed 1.55ºC above pre-industrial levels. Scientists caution that reaching 2ºC could lead to severe floods, droughts, and storms.

• To fight climate change, we need to push for reduced fossil fuels, more renewable energy, sustainable transport, energy-efficient homes, eco-friendly agriculture, reforestation, and forest protection.

3 things I felt grateful for

• Grateful and did not expect but for the great strength during this morning’s workout.

• Grateful for being able to watch parents on the phone on this cam they recently installed for us.

• Grateful wfh tomorrow so will wake up a little relaxed.

What would it take for me and for you to wake up 10 x times bigger, thicker, more energetic, confident, happy, grateful, authentic, happy healthy, wealthy, wake up early in the morning, make it to workout, have a good workout, everything to be okay with family, friends and everyone around, then have a relaxing, relaxing, relaxing yet a productive day tomorrow?

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Goodnight, good luck!

Ash Khaleem