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Thank God for the day!

🌈 1352 – Thursday, 22 May 2025 22:38

London

I’m sitting at my desk right now. “Beautiful One” is playing on Virgin Radio. The weather is a bit cool-mild but with a slight chill. I’m thinking about whether to stay in just shorts or change into pajamas. Maybe I’ll just grab the tiger-print blanket for extra comfort.

Across from me, I can see my neighbour, the girl who lives in the building opposite. She’s already at her desk, working. She might’ve started earlier than I did today, and in a way, it’s motivating. Makes me think that maybe, just maybe, we’re unknowingly keeping each other company from afar. It’s funny how life puts people near you who help you get things done, even if they don’t realise it. Maybe that’s exactly what I’ve needed: someone just quietly there, unknowingly encouraging me.

Who knows how long this little moment will last, but I’m holding onto it. I’m grateful for it, in my heart. For the love I feel – not the kind that’s loud or obvious, but the quiet kind. The kind that sits beside you without asking anything. That’s real love, I think. And sometimes, that kind of love is all we need. We chase other kinds of love, thinking that’ll make us happy, but we should see the the one we’re already wrapped in.

Right now, “Run” by Snow Patrol is playing—“Light up, light up, as if you have a choice…”—and it feels fitting. Like the universe is tuning into how I feel.

Downstairs, I can hear people outside. I’m on the third floor in Mayfair. I’m not sure if it’s because of the upcoming bank holiday or just the good weather, but the streets feel alive tonight. I was just on a call with a friend, who was heading home a bit tipsy after drinks and going back to his dog.

There’s something beautiful about how people enjoy themselves. Somehow, they find a way to feel good. Maybe it’s about letting go.

There’s a long weekend coming up – spring bank holiday on Monday. Part of me wonders: Should I plan the days ahead or just go with the flow? Can I really own my time? Or will I make a to-do list and, like other holidays, end up getting nothing done? It’s happened before. Time passes, and you barely notice.

Feels like time for a poem…

Oh, humans, why do you always feel you must “do”?

Do you really think that brings happiness?

Maybe it’s just to feel like you gave it your best.

You saved the time, stayed at your desk, chased that feeling.

Meanwhile, I’m enjoying dried grapes and cashews at mine.

Now “Celebrate” is playing – “One more time… music got me feeling so free”—and I just want to let these thoughts pour out. It’s 11:21 PM here. My little nightly ramble is winding down.

Back home, where my parents are, it’s 3:28 AM. I’ve got their living room CCTV open on my screen. They must be asleep. My brother’s there with them, and that comforts me. I’m sending them love through this quiet night, letting their presence guide me forward.

This morning, I woke up very early – 5:00 AM on the dot. The sun was already out. I read Dad’s usual good morning prayer message in our family group chat. I sat at the edge of my bed, meditated with 40 Surah Al-Fatihas, then got dressed and headed to the gym. Had a fantastic workout – four sets of pull-ups, squats with 35 kg plates on each side of the bar, shoulder presses, some ab work. Felt amazing when I left.

By 7:20 AM, I was already back home. I debated whether I should start getting ready for work- it still felt too early. I ironed three shirts, picked a cream-colored one as the winner. While ironing, I talked to Mum – they were about to leave for her fourth round of radiation treatment. Just two more to go now. I wished them strength and a smooth day ahead.

I left for work around 8:39. The day was calm, with a few appointments and a birthday lunch with a friend. Later, I walked over to another building to pick up some IT gear. Had a meeting there, so I just stayed in that block until my last appointment. It didn’t make sense to move around.

Came home around 18:50.I I lay down for a bit to a nap. Ended up sleeping for about an hour and a half. Then I realised the evening was slipping away. I got up for a coffee and shook off the sleepiness. And here I am now, writing out my day, letting my thoughts wander.

I don’t really know what this is for – maybe just a moment of sanity I’ll remember later, maybe not. But it’s mine. And if there’s one thing I’ve learned:

No one else is the expert on your life. If you believe they are, you’ve given away your power. You are the expert on your own life…

3 things I feel grateful for today

  • Grateful to still be whole and in my right mind at this point in life.

  • Thankful for the uncertainty of tomorrow – it means anything is possible.

  • So happy for the upcoming bank holiday weekend and the chance to catch up on some work.

What would it take for me and for you to wake up 10 x times bigger, thicker, more energetic, confident, happy, wake up early, get some work done, get to the gym have good workout, login work on time, work day to go smooth, everything to be okay with family, friends and everyone around then have a relaxing, relaxing, relaxing, yet a produtive day tomorrow?

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Goodnight, good luck!

—Ash Khaleem

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